Convicted

This past Sunday, during service at our Church, our Pastor gave a message that convicted me so much. He talked about being addicted to worldy things that push us away from God and for a moment I thought "well that's not me, because I read my Bible and I teach my kids about Jesus. Surely I'm not 'that person' that's being pushed away from God by worldly things. I don't have a lot of things, I'm not a material person really" but right as I was thinking that to myself, the Pastor started listing a few things that were on that list of 'worldly things' and I found myself convicted right then and there.

Pastor Brandon said things of the world that we spend our time on rather than spending time with Jesus include social media and watching tv (among other things).. wait, but how are thise things bad? Well the way I see it is like this; 90% of my downtime is spent on Facebook or watching tv. Now this isn't saying I am using Facebook or tv to do something bad or wrong or even something I shouldn't...its simply pointing out that in the hours I spend watching tv or scrolling Facebook, I have nothing to show for it. What did I accomplish? What did I achieve? The answer > NOTHING! I wasted time, I lost precious time I will never get back! I could have spent that time reading God's Word, playing a game with my kids, spending quality time with my family, many things that would have made me a better mother, wife, even a better Child of God! We must learn to abide in Christ's love and righteousness!

Another point the Pastor made that convicted me was, some people use being an 'introvert' to keep from getting connected and finding community. I am very much an introvert in every way and I felt ashamed at that moment. Countless people have offered to hang out or meet up for coffee or something of that nature and I find myself using life as an excuse! "Oh I can't tomorrow, I have to work" but what I don't mention is that I only work 5 hours of the day.. "I can't today, I'ts grocery day" but what I didn't mention is that I have already finished shopping and I'm currently putting things away and I'll be done in an hour with no other plans.. I know, I should be ashamed of myself and I am.. I have been giving in to that voice inside my head that keeps telling me I want to be alone...its the Devil, like literally!

Anyway, I just wanted to share my troubles over the last few days and see if anyone else is having the same convicted feeling after reading this? Let me know, share with your friends! You never know who needs to hear something until they thank you for sharing it!

I'm working on another liece that is really hard for me to share with y'all. It'll be posted tonight sometime when I finish it.. I'm nervous about the reaction I'll get but I'm more scared of being exposed. We'll soon see what happens..

Much love y'all!

Until next time,

Kay