My Dream

I was on my morning 'wrog' today with my husband and we were talking about my struggles and where I'm at on my journey and we got started talking about how I can help people. I have been thinking about it ever since I had the surgery but I have decided I want to be a Fitness/Health Coach! I want to tell people what I have learned and show them how to achieve their goals. I want to be that someone that won't let you quit, that holds you accountable but also praises your triumphs! I want to be that person that I don't have and haven't had through this.

I struggle with a major addiction to sweets every single day! I was just telling my husband this morning, that I can't even process back far enough to remember what is truth and what is lies.. I have fed myself so many lies and excuses about why it's okay to hide sweets in the house and eat them when I'm alone and I honestly don't know where the reality of the truth stops and the lies and excuses start!

I have 4 kids and usually make all their birthday cakes each year (1 in Dec, 2 in Jan, and 2 in Feb) and I put tons of icing on them because who doesn't like icing, right? Well whatever is left over in the icing tub after the cake is done, I would eat.. straight from the tub. Then I'd eat a slice of cake at the party. Then over the next couple of days, I'd end up finishing the cake off when there was no longer enough for everyone to have a slice.

I loved going to Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners because not only did I get to visit with my family but I got to eat as much free food as I possibly could hold and then hated myself for 2 days after! I used to go to lunch when I was working and order enough food for 2 or 3 people. I used to love Sonic because I could get fried pickles, a meal which included a burger usually and fries, and then ice cream for dessert. Now for a lot of people, that don't sound like very much but I have recently learned that the portions you get at fast food places and especially sit down restaurants, is OVER TWICE the normal amount you should be eating! That's crazy! My favorite restaurant since moving to WA from Texas has been Red Robin! We had never eaten there until we moved here and they have bottomless steak fries AND bottomless root beer floats! What more could a girl ask for?

I won't lie, it has been very hard not eating out but in all honesty, I have felt so much lighter and energetic since we stopped. Even before the surgery! I want to be that person that stands beside you through the whole thing and keeps telling you how much bigger your God is than any addiction! I want to be that person you call when you mess up and eat something you know you shouldn't have and feel awful because I want to be able to tell you it's okay! We all make mistakes but we have to get up and keep moving forward! We can't let 1 little fail moment keep all the joy of the win moments away from us! We deserve to celebrate the good and move on from the bad! If you never celebrate the good things, the bad things seem even worse!

Mark my words, this time next year, I will be looking into the requirements of becoming a Health/Fitness Coach and I will be that someone that we all need through this.

Much love y'all! Until next time,

Kay